Do I Believe in Myself?

I can't stop listening to "Live Like Were Dyin" - Kris Allen

I've realized recently that I don't particularly believe in myself. Just from experiences I've had and beliefs about myelf that seem to be set in concrete. I see people who are so passionate and driven. They want music to be their life- fame or not- or know they live to serve the world and will go into the Peace Corp. and become a diplomat. I have no goals. No dreams. I used to, but they are gone. There is only one thing I know that I want in life- to be content.

I am just very confused right now. I have no clue what I want to do with my life, how I want to live it, or how I'm going to get there. I haven't even chosen a major, which is why I won't go back to school in the fall. I'm just all over the place. I like random things and have some talent but not one or a few that I really love or am great at. I like history but what do you do with that? Same goes for political science. I like to write but there is NO way I'll be an english major. I love to play guitar but my hands are too small to play certain chords so I can't go pro lol. I had chosen a program, fitness trainer and to lead to physical therapy- but I dropped it because it would've added another year to schooling and I'd have to take a bunch of math. Did I mention I hate school? Time to get a degree is a deterant and no, I don't want to be a teacher. I love to sing but I don't know if I really believe others when they say I'm good. I like acting but won't push myself because I'd tell you I'm too short, not pretty enough, not good enough, etc. I'm helping a friend along with her modeling/acting career and my dad asked why I dont put that kind of work in for me. That kind of industry I can't help but think it's kind of a waste of money when people die everyday because they don't have enough food. Plus, I always have my mom in the back of my head saying it's kinda shallow and there's so much more I could do. Exactly why I'm hesitant to go into cosmotelogy- Don't I want to help people or have a more meaningful life than just affecting someones hair?

I know- I'm young, I have plenty of time, nobody has it figured out. Well I don't want to waste my life right now or wake up in ten years and wonder why I haven't done anything. I've been having a midlife crisis since I was ten lol.